I Scream, You Scream...

I love all my children equally, of course, but there are seasons where one is especially dear to me.

My youngest daughter is "that" child.  You know, the one who, had she been first, would likely have been an only child.  We all adore her, but she is and has always been very, well, persnickety   Her birth was premature, and I am fully convinced that she was born feeling rushed and cheated (her twin brother was the one who "kicked" his way out 8 weeks early).

Last week, I spent HOURS making her a dress for Easter.

She loves it, right?!

Lately, she has taken to screaming when she is upset.  Like the kind that, if the windows are left open, would cause the neighbors to call the police or Child Services.  She screams if she's touched.  She screams when I put on her seat belt.  She screams when her twin brother sits in "her spot".  She screams if her older brother sits on the couch she's on.  She screams when I use the wrong lid on her Minnie Mouse sippy cup (one was chewed on by her twin brother--she prefers the un-chewed one). You get the idea. And when she is tired, she adds whining to the sweet symphony of her high pitched recital.

Tonight was especially dramatic.  She wanted her Minnie cup (the one with the UNchewed lid) instead of the princess cup I'd given her.  She wanted me to feed her, though when I finally gave in so the rest of the family could eat in peace, she of course refused to eat.  And, eventually, realizing that she was simply tired beyond her ability to manage (except in whines and screams), I dragged her and her stuffed bunny, kicking and screaming, up the steps and to bed.  As I lay there next to her (not holding her because "it hurts" and "it's gross") and watching her thrash around and tell me it's not bed time, it's not dark, yet, she's not tired, I prayed silently (because when I try to pray aloud with her, she yells at me that she doesn't want to pray, that she's not ready for bed yet).

"Lord, I believe in your perfect plan, but really.  You know me.  You know I have very little patience for whining and moodiness in my children.  I'm not good at coddling...I'm really not.  Why is she like this?  Why won't she behave and respond to me in a way I understand?"

"Why can't you change her?"

And, just in that moment, I got a picture in my head of a child I'd seen awhile ago in a grocery store, being berated and yelled at for whining, and I could hear that audible but quiet voice in my spirit.

"I made her--why would I change her?  I gave her to you because I trust you.  I know she will be loved.  I know she will be treated gently by your family, even when you get frustrated with her.  You will celebrate her uniqueness, and her quirkiness, and you will help her to temper her weaknesses.  I have given her to you because you are the best mother for her.  I trust you"

And at that moment, she grabbed my hand and asked me to hold her, to rub her back, and to stay with her until she fell into a peaceful, angelic sleep.  It was so out of character for her, this precious but oh-so-prickly child who doesn't even like to be snuggled while she is sleeping...

Wow.  That really puts it into perspective, doesn't it?  This exhausting, often thankless, job of mothering and parenting is a GIFT.  It is a privilege.  And I am one who is trusted.  How humbling.

And for tonight, this one sweet child, the one who, most days, I just can't figure out, is my favorite :)

Cheers!
Megan

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Thank you for visiting our blog!  We are Mike and Megan, hopeful homesteaders, followers of Jesus, lovers of freedom and liberty, and parents to four amazing children, ages 12, 10, and twin 3 year olds.  Mike is an active duty soldier, and Megan homeschools the kids and runs a sewing business from home, Wylie Clothworks.  Life is busy and money is tight, so we are always looking for creative ways to stretch our home budget and resources.  We also believe that NOW is the time to prepare for life in our uncertain future.  

Topics we plan to cover include:

• Food--growing it, raising it, hunting it, preparing it, storing it, and cooking it!
• Home skills--sewing, crafting, organizing, and ways to create sustainability in your home and stretch your budget!
• Home Security--defensive (ways to avoid problems in the first place--the army calls this "situational awareness") and offensive (firearms, self defense, and other means of protecting yourself and your family).
• Money--who doesn't love to learn ways to save it and put it to better use?!
• Family and Parenting--we are definitely no experts, but we hope to share what we are learning along the way 

With humor and practicality, our hope is to chronical our winding path of learning to be better parents, citizens, friends, and stewards of what we have been entrusted with.  Hopefully, it will be a blessing to you, too!

Mike & Megan